July 30, 2010 - Evening

A dozen different stories

The reason why I can't respond or adapt in the manner you might be hoping or expecting me to is simple. I don't know what happened or what I'm supposed to be dealing with. You guys use the totality of anonymity to further the scenario of our soap opera. In the process you have given me dozens of conflicting theories and possibilities regarding what has taken place and what you are trying to do. Certainly I understand many aspects of the general direction, but you have not given me a clear picture as to what the true scenario is. Think about it. How many convoluted possibilities have been forwarded my way? I have no idea what the genuine reality actually is. It could be one thing and it could be something completely different. How am I supposed to know? Think about the variety of suggestions you have sent my way. There is no way for me to determine the specifics -- and the fact of the matter is that the possibilities are so varied that trying to assume what you think I should assume is impossible. I can pick one of 12 or more possibilities of the a and try to go with it. What if I'm wrong? What kind of disaster does that lead to? What kind of crossed wires are created?

I really don't think you guys take into account how convoluted your information forwarding has been over the years. It might be this, it might be that, and it might just be deliberate confusion that you are forwarding me. The only consistent response I can formulate is to remain honest and open and have you work from there. It might not be what you are looking for, but a stable reaction is better than one that's completely wrong.

I think you guys get so used to what you're doing at your end that you assume that I must understand your logistics. I don't. Supposedly you are interested in fighting the bad guys. I'm sitting here in segregation because the whole world is full of incompetent people and the only explanation I can come up with is that an independent voice is essential at this period of time. It's the assignment of "seeding" information and ideas I'm trying to accomplish. This has to be done without recognition. That's textbook. I'm supposed to churn out ideas and see what happens. There is no approval for any of the ideas from formal sources and thus there's nothing for opportunists to chase. Money chasers will chase any idea if they think it's funded. My work is such that they can't determine if there's money in it. Heck, I seem to be anti-money and this frightens the opportunists.

And I'm segregated for a variety of reasons. One of them might be to please the idiots in the status quo that think that capitalism is secure. It's not. Nevertheless, it's impossible for me to put on an act with a straight face and pretend that I believe capitalism to be viable. First of all, even if I put on an act I don't have any idea if that would be helping the rest of you and I think that would be skewed behavior. Some people don't like the anti-greed message but the segregation I am under is for a purpose. I'm seeing it as a testing phase. Obviously it's important to someone other than just myself. I can't put on an act and pretend that I feel that I'm being totally persecuted without hope simply because my position is pretty innocuous. I talk about solutions. I'm a repair man to the best of my ability. The drug dealing stoner might not want the repair man waking him up to fix the widescreen TV in the morning... and he may persecute the guy who knocks on the door early -- but eventually even the retards want the problems solved. I talk about the problems and document the basics of what must be solved. My work isn't really that controversial. Only a collection of idiots opposes me, and that's based on total stupidity. But what nature does that stupidity take on? Are the drug dealers and pedophiles or are they greedtards and Satanists? Are they a general assortment of the population, or are they specifically in a few assorted lodges? I just don't know the specifics of it all -- and I think you guys assume that I can put it together. Unfortunately, you have given me a pallet of conflicting stories. I can't even determine if that's on purpose or not. You do a splendid and deliberate job of confusing everything. I figure out parts of it and have suspicions about more of it -- but you don't do anywhere close to enough to make sense of it to me.

For this reason I just have to limp along and be honest. If you can't be more clear then I can't even adapt to the tempo of what you're doing. What's the tune? You tell me a dozen different tunes regarding what might be and what might not be. What could be, and what was or wasn't. I really and truly think that you must fall into the assumption that I see things like the rest of you. Sure, I've been at this for a long time but literally you don't paint a consistent picture. Even worse, I don't think you want to or are going to. This means that I'm just supposed to "understand" what the truth is behind 12 different stories -- all of it convoluted and deliberately made confused at times. Somehow I'm just supposed to get the nuances and the differing degrees of what you're talking about without ever being briefed about any of it. The only thing that makes sense to me is that I don't think you guys truly assess how bad your information forwarding really is. I have to try to contend with every possibility. If I'm honest then at least you can gauge yourselves for that and work with it.

In all seriousness, what you guys are doing might not even involve accuracies. You might not even be trying to be genuinely accurate. Sometimes it looks like you're just stirring up controversy and confusion. I don't even think I can expect solid information from you guys. There are just hints and possibilities along the way that I try to account for. Please don't assume that you're communicating effectively because you're not. You try it. Forward someone a dozen different stories and admittedly inject deception and controversy into the mix all from positions of anonymity. The only surprising thing is the fact that I haven't scrapped this correspondence altogether. Your performance is deplorable because it is convoluted. However, maybe you know this and perhaps the nature of your side of things is just to make life difficult for everyone pending some sort of resolution. Sometimes I don't even think you're on the right track because if you were you'd be embracing direct education more than you are. The whole world is relatively spineless if you ask me. All my life I've heard people say "we can't", "we can't", "we can't" confront the real issues and the greed issues because the enemy would reject the truth. We have to start somewhere and we have to start telling the truth. You can't just leave me to seed it while the rest of you remain inadequate. You're doing more than ever and I'm happy about that but I remain very displeased about the convoluted gameplay. I couldn't dance to your tune even if I wanted to. I couldn't lie even if I had to because you're playing me 12 different tunes and I never even studied dancing.

 

 

July 30, 2010 - Evening

DO WHAT THOU WILT

Every devil worshiper has a lot of esoteric wisdom from really esoteric sources that you can find in any grubby bookstore. It's grubby and the Internet is filled with it, but it's really rare and esoteric and only mean-spirited people can understand it.

People can do anything they like I suppose. They can do what thou wilt and plan on getting away with it. That is of course, until they injure others, and make the whole world angry at them. The mean-spirited occult experts among us wield the power of the universe and do whatever they please and it must be kind of fun. They do this for some reason after all.

They just kind of forget that if they make too many people mad for the wrong reasons then everyone else decides to do what thou wilt unto them. I suppose they reckon that because they are demon wolves with magick power, the sheep will never harm them and fellow wizards will fear them or just leave them alone. After all, magick is about a small highly intelligent group of people who rip off and abuse the world's people with their super-powers. Fellow sorcerers couldn't possibly get upset because nobody cares about the sheep and there are plentiful numbers of people to rip off.

I guess this is what their rationale is. Technically I'm supposed to warn them before it's too late. Some consequences we really do not wish upon our worst enemies so that's why I try to be fair. I'm also trying to navigate waters of our confusing reality and stay out of trouble myself if possible. The greedy bad people need to apply for amnesty as soon as possible. They are running out of time.

The simple fact of the matter is that the universe really does operate according to the principle of equilibrium. This means that you can't cheat without getting clobbered. It doesn't matter how strong or smart you are, you have to maintain balance. The devil worshipers just want to take over the world and own everything. They don't think they need to balance themselves simply because they have selfish ideas they read in grubby books from grubby bookstores. With that fearsome knowledge, I suppose they think they can manipulate the universe and do what they please. They also think they have a chance of building a new world and a new Satanic order that they will conveniently control.

Kind of dumb, huh? The real reality is that the majority of the people must maintain balance whether they like it or not. The conventional leaders are often very wasteful and they spend money like there's no tomorrow. This is bad behavior and it has consequences but a lot of them still understand that they must be cautious and balance themselves just to survive. People break rules and that doesn't make it right but at least some of them realize their mistakes. The devil worshipers, greedtards and child molesters figure that the universe gives them a free license to do what they please and nothing will go wrong because somehow they are smarter than everyone else.

I really don't get it because even dumb people get angry and hold resentments for years. One of these days the majority of people will all of a sudden rise up and fix the problem. They will do what thou wilt unto the devil worshipers and correct the problem. I think the devil worshipers actually suspect this and they are terribly nervous these days. They need to apply for amnesty. Repent, confess and turn themselves in -- is what they must do. The final deadline is coming and time is running out. The devil worshipers hope that they won't have to make amends because they will be taking over. Unfortunately, they have to realize that no one can overthrow equilibrium. Certainly the church and conventional authorities can be corrupt but they make mistakes and they know it. The real fools are those who think they can be belligerent as they please and avoid consequences simply because of the grubby books from the grubby bookstores that they have read. Heck, some of these young kids probably don't even really remember what books were like. They are probably reading on the iPhone now or just listening to some grubby lyrics from some grubby music that contain "esoteric" truths.

SELFISH OR SUSTAINABLE

So yes, there are two paths we can follow. We can choose selfishness or sustainability. The words are just words but most people can figure out the contrast if they really want to. Some people want to be selfish and others realize that they have to be balanced. All people can be tempted toward selfish ends, but it doesn't really work out.

We have a world that has a large number of selfish people running rampant. It has become a contagion. The leaders of the selfishness assume that they can own it all and rule it all. They don't think they have to resort to balance. They just think they can swindle as much money as possible and hurt whoever they please. They haven't figured out the fact that when you polarize wealth, it becomes as dangerous as any of the forces of nature. It becomes magnetic, electric, and atomic. I see the money game as a great big electric Circus. It's a high-voltage game and if fools play with high-voltage they end up getting electrocuted. Billionaires can't quite figure out that they are playing with fire. I would advise all billionaires to really be careful. Some of them may actually be acting more as managers than personal owners... but owning too much is extremely dangerous in the long term. It ruins families and it ruins people. The ill effects might not manifest immediately in all cases, but the problems show up.

We have two paths and there's no way of bypassing the realities. If people choose selfishness (and so many do) the money and debt eventually polarize until the forces of opposition explode. There is no way to avoid the consequences of greed and evil. The practitioners simply have to quit. Sadly, arrogant money addicts have a hard time quitting. They might think that their money buys them insulation, but they have to assess the protection that can be bought. Money insulates people, but when breakdowns occur, even the thickest installation will not shield the wrongdoer. The public is angry and the public is going to be much angrier before it's all said and done. In the good old days the Bernie Madoffs of the world went to jail and got beat up. Those who don't repent and change their ways will end up meeting their fate.

You see, when you swindle people they are swindled expecting payment someday. Basically the swindler promises future payment in exchange for the real wealth and assets at a later date. Stupid people often get swindled but very few of them actually forget that they were swindled. We have millions of people who won't be forgetting and there's nowhere for the wrongdoers to run and hide. They need to give up, they need to confess, and they need to seek amnesty before it's too late. There is no magical solution and the worn out arguments they have been making since the end of the second world war will not be holding up much longer. It has been an age of commercialism, selfishness and capitalism. It was interesting and somewhat fun for some people but overall it has been quite repugnant if you ask me.

I think the wrongdoers are probably upset with me for doing my part in telling the truth. I think they think that if everyone was to agree upon lies then they would get away with the swindles forever. Unfortunately, the real world involves real things. People have to live and survive. Swindlers destroy our capacity to survive and thus people eventually have to take action. Even the sheep turn into wolves and there are a lot of them. The current wolves in their limousines think they're pretty tough, but barking at a lawyer through a cell phone while an angry mob is ripping the limo apart isn't very tough when you really think about it. The financial system will be collapsing because too many people have swindled too much all at once. It became a contagion and morals were thrown away. If it was just one or maybe two people engaged in corruption then the story might be different. However, it's not something that's contained. It's an epidemic. The whole world has been turning to selfishness and corruption. The poor and stupid people have followed suit expecting the promises of the swindlers. Sooner or later the pyramid scheme topples.

Apply for amnesty and throw away the big plans and ideas. No one will be overthrowing equilibrium anytime soon or anytime at all. If by chance we end up with mass stupidity then there will be mass chaos until we balance things out again. What will never happen is the manifestation of a group of degenerates who take over the world for their own purposes. A lot of cretins want this, but it just doesn't work. It's infuriating for them. I know this. It's supposed to work out, but century after century after century it never does and always ends up in chaos.

The wrongdoers can keep trying to further their irresponsible plans, but the more wrongs they commit the worse the consequences will become. This will not happen because I'm saying so. It will simply happen because that's the way the universe works. I'm just hoping that we can minimize the chaos and needless destruction.

WEIRD

I was trying my best to go with the amnesty theme in the last two sections because that's where I thought our tap dance was headed. It doesn't really matter who is doing what. I'm just trying to do the right thing and be useful. In theory I'm trying to communicate all those things that can't be admitted from the inside. I'm doing so on the assumption that an independent opinion is what is requested of me. That means that the possibilities are communicated especially to the devil worshipers but without concrete proof coming from the conventional forces. In other words, I'm just trying to fit in and help resolve whatever I can. I don't know what else there is to do on a planet especially one that's kind of messed up.

Anyway, the mood is always fluctuating between extremes and I think it keeps everyone off guard. It even keeps some of the writers off guard I have seen. I don't know what to make of it sometimes and ultimately all I can do is remain truthful because I wouldn't know what lies to tell even if I wanted to. From my position there isn't any strategy I can adopt. I simply don't have the facts.

I'm not worried about Marta these days. It's uncanny because I simply love her. How come no one else has the effect on me? How come no one else has any similar effect? I don't even relish discussing these issues but there's nothing much I can do for now. I'm stuck in segregation... but it certainly is proving a point, isn't it?

So I don't know if you guys are in serious mode or happy mode or just confusion mode. I'm not going to worry about it but I can say that the only danger I'm facing these days is occasional dismay. I'm kind of tired of how slow things are. I'm tired of how slow the people are to wake up. We are still entrenched in the dark ages of grubby greed and it's claustrophobic for me. Sadly, the greedtards are fixated on the silly game they play and they can't seem to see it the better way. Hurry up!

I'm also not worried about Marta so much because let's face it -- my life has not been the usual. It has been one of the more unusual lives I suspect. That's not a boast either. With an unusual predicament, it would make sense that I would find someone who is equally unusual and even somewhat disturbing at times. That's my sweetheart. I've never encountered anyone more unusual. After all these years, the effect is as strong as ever.

Sadly, Marta requires complicated situations I think. I suppose life has to have meaning and we certainly have arrived at that. It's probably something ridiculous whereas we can look back on this century and figure out memorable existences. I think we may end up qualifying. Okay.

* * * NO MERCY * * *

Please, let me be clear about my position. I have no sympathy whatsoever for the wrongdoers. I don't know what best to call them but for the most part the dictionary definition of Satanism is appropriate. It's greed and formal greed in all of its selfish ways that is the problem.

From my position as an independent educator, adviser, speaker or whatever -- it is my assignment to recommend the proper policies. I have to advise the wrongdoers to stop what they're doing. I have to advise the wrongdoers to follow the basic tenets of religion. For the most part, there is no major dispute regarding right and wrong so they know what's what. They simply ignore guidelines because as animalistic atheists they do not believe in consequences.

As an independent I am in no position to make reckless recommendations. In addition, I do not believe that proper advice is harmful in any way. The one position that is difficult to clarify regards my sympathies. A lot of people are sympathetic by nature toward evildoers. A lot of people are very forgiving toward unrepentant sinners. The reason for this is simple. Sinners sympathize with one another and seek to minimize their self-condemnation through consensus thought. I suspect that some of the problems I have had with the secret societies and antagonists is actually based on consensus. Wrongdoers feel better about themselves if we all contend to agree with the wrongs. This is the garbage that goes on in the lodges as far as I'm concerned. The morally relative attitude is that everyone is a sinner and that makes it okay.

My motives for the amnesty position and telling the truth is not to provide assistance to criminals. On the contrary. I simply must state policy for the record. I can only state what I believe to be responsible to the best of my ability. I am in no position to deceive anyone, and my lack of insulation means that I must be open and honest. My only real personal defense consists of integrity. I have to be clear about what I stand for especially given my opinionated history. Stating open policy means that I advise open policy. It means that I am not doing anything inappropriate behind the scenes that ought be preemptively retaliated against. The antagonists are hoping to find wrongful and hostile "fascists" that they can blame for their own problems. There are a lot of them who dream of recklessly solving their problems with attacks. I have to be clear and open to defuse suspicions. I am not insulated as some of you behind the scenes are. This means that I must walk a fine line. For certain, my opinionated history requires this of me. I can't lie about things either or else I cultivate reason for retaliation.

It is for these reasons that I have had to live openly. I don't like the wrongdoers but it is not my job to execute them. I can only do what I feel is best as one who really is stuck in an independent and segregated state. My position at street level is not well fortified and therefore I must remain consistent. I am fine with this. I am not the executioner and I am not a vigilante. I simply state what I believe needs to be stated. I do not do what I do because I am sympathetic to the criminals in question. If you want my straight opinion, I would like them to meet their demise as much as the rest of you wish it. I get the impression that I'm not the only one who is sick and tired of the capitalist liars. We know who they are, and we know the ultimate hypocrisy they stand for. We simply have had to put up with along and sickening fraud that is coming to an end.

To tell you the truth, warning them from my perspective will not help them avoid the consequences. No one avoids the consequences because the universe really does operate in accordance with equilibrium. The wrongdoers pay for their wrongs and they don't get out of any of it. However, if they voluntarily choose to correct themselves then we diffuse the problem. Sometimes I get the impression that some of you would like to see them arm themselves for detonation. It's almost as if some of you would like to get the revolver into the hands of the juvenile delinquent so that the ending will be permanent. This may seem plausible but we must remind ourselves that responsible policy is what must be adhered to. The wrongdoers meet their demise no matter what. It is not up to the rest of us to purposely act irresponsibly in order to try and hasten that demise. Let us not make mistakes on our own part to try and correct their wrongs. It is not for us to deliberately create mistakes. It is not for us to mislead anyone. It is not for us to be liars. Let us tell the truth and equilibrium will take care of the rest.

I think one of the biggest problems with worldwide law-enforcement has been the notion that the criminal must be deceived into justice. This is a tragic, tragic mistake and false assumption. This is what I have been arguing against all these years. We are not battling crime. We are maintaining balance. We do not have to help the criminal along in any regard. I have no sympathies nor can I exercise ill will against criminals. I simply have to do what's right and follow moral procedure. Moral procedure is understandable in a wide variety of ways at every level. Let us find the truth and implement it. On a personal basis I can't say that I wouldn't mind hastening the demise of the cretinous Satanists causing so many problems but I have to maintain my own balance just like everyone else. I know it's not pleasant but we must stick to it. Don't think for one minute that a failure to deceive them will lead to some sort of success at their end. Everyone who defies equilibrium ends up with the consequences. That's a mathematical certainty and I have no doubts about it whatsoever.

So don't think for a minute that I'm sympathetic. My motives are not weak willed and I don't talk about the truth to assist the furtherance of wrongs. This is not an error that I'm making. It's policy policy policy. Once again, my position may seem a trite bit weak in some regards, but this is done deliberately. I am always mindful and wary of the things I have said and done in the past. There are those who would argue that my real position is too harsh and potentially dangerous. The criminals would argue that they are not completely in the wrong and require the proper means to reform themselves. They would argue that they should not be attacked unfairly. All I can do is give them policy. Let them laugh. If some of them choose to reform themselves, then this is best for all involved. However, don't for a second think that I can provide any of these wrongdoers with warnings or miracle intelligence that will perpetrate their crimes and help them avoid the consequences. That is impossible. Equilibrium really does take care of everything. Equilibrium is in fact the basis for the law of the jungle as well as the law of those who are civilized. The animals and demons of the jungle eventually learn rudimentary morality through harshness. Animals are actually more civilized than Satanists because they instinctually understand the consequences of doing too much biting and clawing. Satanists don't realize how stupid they are. They are lesser creatures than animals because they do not possess the wisdom of instinct. They are the ones who are in the process of learning the hard way, and we need not help them along this path. They don't have to be deceived, manipulated or set up. They are already on the path to something horrifying.

Ultimately, morality is a choice we make for more reasons than one. We choose to be moral because we are kind and friendly and want the best for others. We also choose good behavior to avoid the side effects of our actions. The motives vary but ultimately the choice is clear for those of us who understand. The atheistic Satanic Devils that do what they do are cruising for a bruising. Ultimately we need not collide with them at all. We simply allow them to do what they wilt and they'll find their own collisions if they insist on such nonsense.

My position does not assist them in their evil endeavors. I hope this is understood. Believe it or not I think about these matters carefully. The only parameter that is of concern to me is navigation. I have to be as mild-mannered as I can be at this point because I must diffuse some of the inflammatory remarks of my past. I must emphasize that policy must be followed. Justice is not a personal vendetta on my behalf. I despise the criminals, but must adhere to policy for the wisest of reasons.

 

 

 

 

Marta is everywhere!